i cant really explain what is going on w/o taking up 5 pages so ill spare ya'll but i just really feel like life is going on all around me right now and i seem to be "stuck in a foggy haze" -no direction, no motivation, no real joy... and i dont like it!
You have summed up perfectly what most of us felt like and what we went through. I became someone I wasn't. I would wake up like a shot at 3am and start planning how I was going to screw with her boyfriend that day, I literally became a caged animal. I would have probably killed him but I wanted to make his life a living hell first, and I did a pretty good job. The little wimp finally got a restraining order against me. That really didn't stop me because I was smart enough to do things that they couldn't trace back to me. but the cops would still show up at our door.
Finally, my Son Don sat me down and said "Dad, we aren't this kind of people, we do not live like this." It hit me and I stopped and started to get my life back together. I look back now and realize I had just flipped out, my whole world was turned upside down and I didn't know how to deal with it. I even had a stroke over it.
But looking back now it was the best thing that ever happened to me. She and I were just hanging on by a thread for the last 14 years of our marriage and simply tolerating each other. It took a full year for me to start feeling human again and then I met a really super lady that I was with for the next 7 years.
Life does go on and someday you will look back and she will only be someone you once knew.
Don
