Dozer, after a while your loss can be softened by thinking of what you learned from the 'dearly departed'. I learned that my Dad guided me, even guided my way of making decisions, through my early life, and even after his death. To this day, [52 years later], I still think -'will Dad be proud of me for this,---- ya, I think so], so he's still guiding me. Hopefully, you'll see your Dad's teachings more clearly in the years ahead.
Keep on keepin' on.