You must have ESPN, Preacher, I was just thinking that we haven't heard from you for a while and was going to give a shout out.
I can tell by the tone of your post that you are starting to heal, good for you. Every day will be better and having your kids around will speed that process. I am so happy for you.
To give you an example of how time does heal, I just heard yesterday from my Son that my ex wife's former boyfriend died of cancer this week. This is a man that I was close to killing at one time because he played a big part in our divorce, and yet when I heard the news there was no joy for me. I sent her an email with my condolences and I sincerely meant it. I honestly felt bad because I knew she would be sad over it, even though they split a few years ago.
You will get to that point too, Preacher. Someday you will look at her and it will be only a distant memory, someone you just knew once.
Good for you, and keep us posted, we really care.
Don